I have been through many incarnations since the mid 70's. I
don't need to "believe" in miracles. Miracles/magical events happen all around us when
we receive the grace to see
life clearly as it is.
Until we awaken, we are like sleep walkers who live in a dream world. Many of us take so
very much for granted. We use our minds as the supreme judge of what reality
is about. Contrary to what your ego asserts, your mind is not the boss!
Opening ones' heart/mind and surrendering to a "higher power" is the first
step to a magical fresh and new life with Spirit (God) at the center. If you
are sincere then you will be motivated to purify yourself and begin the
necessary "inner work". Be patient and think positive, Divine mercy
will soon help guide your way H-OM-E.
I am reminded of a
story about a horse carriage driver who spent many years driving his rig. Like most ego
driven personalities, he always
assumed he was in charge of his life. One day the Master inside the
carriage knocked on the window and told him to take the next right turn. He was quickly
and realized that he was not really in charge but was only a servant of the true inner
The physical body is just a speck of dust -
and simultaneously the indwelling spirit inspires us to fulfill whatever it
iswe are here for. For me, it is to be a multi-faceted, multi-dimensional,
spontaneous person. It awakened and supported a wide range of
interests and activities. I regularly work on computer graphics projects.
I also have been a webmaster for several
businesses. I do computer installations and have been known to fix a few
too. I also am both an engineer and electronics tech. so I enjoy working on
electronic projects in the my spare time.
I also work as a massage therapist and enjoy working
intuitively with healing energies. I am an animal lover and enjoy
interacting with them. We can learn much from our wild friends and pets
about being fully present in each moment and being unconditional loving. I
know that animals, as well as all living things, do communicate with us telepathically, if we are quiet
enough inside to hear them.
Music, Massage and
Healing work are important creative expressions in my life. I regularly play drums (Blues,
R&B, Jazz, Funk, Latin and the Classic Standards) using a vintage Ludwig drum kit. I enjoy both
playing and watching the audience having fun dancing. I also recently
started hosting comedy/variety shows and even doing some standup comedy. I
also love attending live music
concerts and spiritual gatherings. However, I am also happy to be without a
busy schedule to enjoy the gentle stillness of the beautiful rural
years ago a gifted writer, healer and friend named Richard started to call me Allan "G".
Then his eyes started to twinkle and he said why not call yourself Allanji...pronounced as "a-lon-gheee". It felt right so I use
that name in cyberspace and a few of my friends now call me allanji too.
spiritual practice is constantly evolving on many levels. In the stillness of
the great void one can discover and be embraced by their unique relationship
with "SOURCE". I am no fundamentalist however, I do see much value in
traditions that have stood the test of time. By praying to the divine, chanting,
loving service and surrendering to Divine guidance, magic and miracles do
happen. I especially love the Green Tara, Gayatri Mantra,
Prajna Paramita - Hannya Shingo (Heart Sutra), Prayer of Jebez, Medicine Buddha chants and memorized them
to be one with them on a cellular/energetic level. By chanting..etc..,
I become more attuned to an all-knowing divine love & light presence that
resides within us all. I also enjoy sharing walks in the woods nearby and listening to the
birds sing and the leaves rustling in the breeze.
I've had several powerful divine interventions which has
proved to me that angels and the Holy Spirit are my constant
companions. Whenever I humbly ask Jesus or God or Spirit for help - relief
and for that I feel profound gratitude. Because I often deal with people who are not in
alignment with dharma or Spirit, I find it very helpful to align and recharge myself by sitting quietly and feeling the tingling breath of
spirit moving through me. If we need to give our cars a tune
up - don't you think we also deserve and need a regular spiritual tune up too?
I enjoy jamming regularly with
several local musicians. The trick to playing drums is to let go of my
"story" or identification/ or thoughts from the past. If I identify myself as the
"doer" or trying to play music from the mental plane, my identification with
ego keeps me feeling separate from the magic
of the "nowness". There is a letting go that naturally occurs by living spontaneously
and playing music from the heart. I
have played my djembe (African hand drum) with the amazing Jai Uttal group at a benefit concert. They
are very talented musicians and playing with them was inspiring on many levels.
Music continues to enrich me and provide a wonderful canvas for self
The Blues Farm pets add much love and laughter to our musical ashram.
||Tigress Zowie arrived in in early '03 and has been a
wonderful friend and a good mouser too!
She originally was quite wild and it took a few months for her to settle down
and be relaxed around the house. At night, she often goes into hyper
drive and runs around in a high pitched frenzy.
Her very present awareness is wonderful to have around and I
spent many a relaxing hour hearing her sweet purring while she was
sitting on my lap. She also loves to get frisky and very playful with her
little bites and scratches. Sometimes she gets a little carried away...ouch!
She had complete rule of the house until our next
"guest" arrived from parts unknown. Zowie loves to spend
most of her time outside and returns to the house for food and
companionship. She was fearful in the beginning so it took a couple of
months, but now Zowie has developed a playful friendship with
Lucy. She now even chases Lucy around the house for fun!
Zowie went missing 2 years after we found her. The
back utility room looked like a fierce fight had taken place; lamps were
knocked over etc. It looks like she put up a good fight but not good
enough to save her life. We never found her body but trust that she is
at peace with the lord.
||I returned home from playing a night music gig in
august '04, and was greeted by this adorable, young black Lab. She
smelled and looked very clean so for the next 2 weeks we searched the
'hood and the animal shelter for her owner but no one claimed her or even
knew where she came from.
She was obviously feeling lost, fearful and abandoned and begged to be allowed to
live here. Everyone in the house fell in love with her and she moved
right in with numerous doggie treats to celebrate her arrival.
My guess is that she was abandoned here by someone who just couldn't take
care of her. Our very gifted bass player, Darren named her Lucy. Her love and enthusiasm for life is
highly contagious for us and all who visit our humble abode.
Lucy loves chasing the
water and I often spray her with the garden hose when on the back
deck while Zowie watches the show and playfully stretches.
Lucy Update -posted 4/24/06
I returned home from showing a movie at Harbin Hot
Springs on Sat 4/22/06 and was greeted briefly by Lucy. Then for some
reason she quickly ran off running perhaps to chase the many rabbits
that are in the woods here. I loudly called her name several times
because I knew that there is sometimes fast moving traffic on our back
country road. After calling her name several times, I heard a fast
moving car engine in the distance and started to call her even more
frantically to no avail!
Then I heard the 'SMASH' sound and her last YELP as
the car hit and fortunately she died very quickly from a severe head
injury. I was in shock from this tragic event and had a good friend come
over and hang with me for a few hours that night. Early the next
morning, I buried Lucy with her favorite toy, pillow. We also put some
nice flowers in her grave.
Her unconditional love and friendship is so priceless
I felt waves of sadness since I miss her dearly.
She was more than a dog to me. She has a great loving spirit to everyone
and I feel such deep sadness and also deep appreciation for having her
love in my life for the past 2 years.
Goodbye sweet Lucy, may you rest in peace!
In Jan '08, I moved into a new home with my new baby
black cat named Lucky. It's a beautiful 11 acre estate but unfortunately my
room had extensive mold contamination that soon gave me a terrible
respiratory infection which landed me in the hospital for 9 days! So
now I am looking for a new home where the air is clean and uncontaminated.
Now it's late August '08 and fortunately there are several possibilities
available and I'm in the process of picking the most suitable to move to.
Since 2004, I've been playing drums and
cartels with the Harbin Kirtan Band, led by Peter B., at Harbin Hot Springs,
Middletown.. It's a wonderful way to spend 2 hours Sunday afternoon starting
at 12:30 pm. It combines both Hindu and Christian chants and it is a
wonderful devotional service for world peace and to celebrate love and
appreciation for our infinite Creator.
Harbin was a great new home since graduating from their 1
year membership/work program to become a resident. I have contributed to
this community and enjoyed the multi-dimensional rewards of fellowship with
many other dedicated workers spiritually awake people - both guests
and residents. However due to core differences with management I am no
longer associated with Harbin but relish the many friendships that were born
by my association there.
When not playing music or working/playing on the computer, I am usually
hanging with friends, gaming at the local casino, doing seva/working and hiking and biking
around the local countryside and enjoying sharing with my new wonderful
spiritual church family at United Methodist Church in Middletown. Some
question my time spent at the casino however I've help enrolled several
folks there as Church Members plus much much more.
Since my old computer's motherboard fizzed out, I bought a new computer to make some changes and additions
to my ongoing story here. It's Oct. '2014 and a new chapter in my
life pilgrimage adventure is unfolding since leaving Harbin a couple of
years ago. Since meeting a wonderful new friend, Scott Snider, I've
experienced a new sense of joy due to the non-judgmental way he lives.
Sometimes being highly empathic has great rewards. Scott has had a few brain
tumors surgically removed. It also removed all negativity from his life that
most folks are harassed by. At Scott's invitation, I recently attended a 3 day portal ascension conference at
Mt. Shasta which gave me much food for thought, clarification and a more
galactic POV on earthly events. It's becoming very evident that the
5th dimensional reality is already here and awaiting our most positive and
highest vibrational thoughts to help us all evolve to our highest
As I look at the current political dramas, I am aware of a growing impatience of the forces of darkness to
imprison us in their fear based realities ie...constant war on terror.
Perhaps the Archonic forces sense that their reign of terror is coming to a
end soon. I never did like gov't false flags, lies or treachery especially
after seeing over 58,000 of my brethren senselessly die in 'Nam over the
gulf of Tonkin false flag. I do what I can to shine the light of truth to
dispel the darkness. Likewise, I feel a kinship with the many
light-workers dedicated to creating heaven on earth whom I believe will
eventually prevail. However, to evolve as a species we must learn
from the past by facing what happened without getting entangled or bogged
down in it. Buddha taught the middleway or Madyahama which is excellent
advice for those on the path. Likewise, realizing the oneness, impermanence
and suchness are all essential core ingredients for a dharmically aligned
life. I therefore can't emphasize enough the great benefits arising from
daily sacred activities.
Improving my holistic health by regular exercise, more
focused daily meditations and sharing the dharma has taken a even more
prominent position in my day to day activities. In the past 2 years
I've been exploring the Coherence healing work being taught by the heart
math institute in Boulder Creek Ca (www.heartmath.com) . I've read
dozens of books by Lynn McTaggart, Greg Braden, Michael Talbot and many
others and find the information quite useful when integrated into a daily
spiritual meditation and healing practice. The key to self-realization is to
operate mainly from the heart and avoid getting stuck in a head trip of dry
intellectual concepts that far too many have. Ultimately despite our best
efforts, it is really divine grace that liberates us from the maya
(illusion) and guides our way.
It's now 2/13/2015 and I am just moved to a new Hidden Valley
residence due to my old home being sold. Living in a gated community means
that any outside visitors must be "called in" first to get access. That is
something I am still getting used to. There are several friends living
nearby in this community which makes the location very desirable. This move
is encouraging a focus more on healing self and others via healing bodywork
and coherence methodologies and spending far less time dilly dallying at the local Twin Pine Casino. However
I do love to check out their live music and dances on the weekends.
I gave away my old trusty massage table to a friend that served me well for
a few decades and bought a new much lighter and more portable one that is very strong,
stable and far easier to setup and take down. Over the years I have
also experimented and developed a very penetrating massage oil that really
helps alleviate many body conditions. I use a small amount of DMSO combined
with aura glow massage oil with other shamanastic ingredients such as Palo
Santo to help in the the removal of negativity. I have been using this
propriety mix on myself daily and others and can attest to it's positive
benefits. Plus, I believe it's also help me avoid many common
medical conditions that many people are plagued with such as arthritis etc.
Engaging in a blend of mystic and multi-religious
practices, I feel deeply grateful to the living Spirit of unconditional love
and guidance that has helped me thru some very challenging situations.
To the best of my abilities, I choose love over fear despite the systemic
turmoil in the world. I take solace that the "Prime Creator" knows all
and is my constant companion, guide and protector. This is fully realized
when I surrender to HIS will and not my egoic conditioning. My Yiddish
name is Avrum (Abraham - friend of God) so it's fitting that my Bar Mitzvah
reading at age 13 included Genesis chapter 12 vs. 1-4:
12 The Lord had
said to Abram, “Go from your country, your people and your father’s
the land I
will show you.
2 “I will make you into a great nation,
I will bless you;
I will make your name great,
you will be a blessing.
3 I will bless those who bless you,
whoever curses you I will curse;
and all peoples on earth
be blessed through you.”
Over the years, I've directly seen this bible verse's
teaching light up. Therefore, I relish a living, dynamic relationship with
the living spirit who is called many names in different traditions. I see
myself more of a planetary citizen and not a slave to any religious dogmas
or political agendas which is quite the opposite of someone who fits inside any box of
limited egoic conceptual beliefs.
Dancing while turning 70 years
I started a new chapter of my life adventure after turning 70 in July '16 and
I am amazed at how well this body-mind-spirit is holding up to the
challenges of growing older. I went on a diet about 1 yr ago and
managed to lose over 40 lbs so far which has allowed me to dance for
hours much like I was able to do when much younger. I still practice
daily meditation, chanting and prayers and feel a reversal of the
aging process is naturally occurring due to losing a great deal of excess
weight and staying open and flexible to the ups and downs we all deal with
daily. Impermanence is a core construct in Buddhism and that helps me accept
life's changes gracefully.
I enjoy playing drums and have a weekly Sunday date at the Methodist Church
playing gospel songs at the services with a small church family band there.
It is a true blessing to make a joyful sound unto the glory of our Lord and
to be part of a team that helps uplift folks spirits! I also relish
the time spent daily engaged in chanting and aligning with the Great
Spirit who guides, inspires, prospers and protects me in my life!
My Buddhist and Zen meditation practices are helping me focus
on what is truly important in life. Recently was guided by Spirit
(Holy Ghost) to go more deeply into the Rainbow Body practices. I find
these practices blend nicely with my usual daily meditations and so I am
both empowered and inspired to go even deeper into "Mahamudra". Yes life can be much like a
magic carpet ride when aligning with and surrendering to the infinite "Great Spirit".
May 2019 update to my story - Got my own crib to enjoy
going deeper into spirit!
Now in my early 70's, I've moved several times in the past 2
years to find suitable housing due to health problems. I've scaled back my activities also to honor my available energy levels. I
moved to a very comfy 1 bedroom apt. in Clearlake Oaks in senior housing
apts called Eskaton Manor where I presently enjoy sharing with a diverse mix of seniors.
Since moving here, I'm getting healthier and stronger and so I am offering a monthly drumming
circle to celebrate life!
A year has gone by quickly so I decided to make a quick update here (May
The virus pandemic has virtually shut down most of California!
My neighbor passed away recently, so I adopted her black cat named "Bootsie".
She is a handful who frequently wakes me up very early to eat.
Her owner didn't socialize her so she is like a feral cat that needs lots of
love to be domesticated. Sometimes she wakes me up 3X night so I have to
shut my bedroom door to get enough sleep. However, I am enjoying
her companionship and playing lazer tag with her is a blast. She also
loves to meditate and she sees the "invisible spirits" that float around
I just tuned up my mountain bike and hope to ride it soon
around the neighborhood for exercise. In Aptos, I used used to do 20 mile
rides and climb 3000' mountains when I was in much better shape and 20 years
younger. Now I am happy to just take it easy and enjoy the scenery.
Bootsie is watching me as I write this so I am cutting this entry short.
I have been sharing housing for many years and so I am really
enjoying having my own apartment now with Bootsie. I feel very blessed to live here in
peace and beauty. The Kingdom of Heaven (pure love, light and boundless
awareness) is our birthright and therefore embedded within
us all! Sometimes it gets covered by negativity due to
bad associaton and/or tragic life experiences however we can always return
(do shuva) to the Lord's bright purity by
engaging in sacred practices while also surrendering to Holy Spirit.
Many have discovered that having complete faith in the Lord is the key to
salvation! I couldn't agree more! I am both inspired and humbled
by the association of these angelic spiritual entities and deeply appreciate
their visits along with my wonderful friends too !
you much aliveness, love, joy, peace and supportive ecstatic dharmic adventures on your journey
Baruch Hashem - Tashi Delek
Allan (aka: Buddha Al, Star)